my day at the beach :-)

I was determined not to let yesterday affect my mood today. I felt so numb and out of it last night, that i knew i had to get my head on straight and FOCUS again. 

at about 11am, we packed up some stuff and headed beach-bound....

obvs the dog needed a sunhat too!

bag of essentials. flip flops, towel, sunnies...

i FORGOT my book! :-(

PUGS not DRUGS y'all. 

my rockin mothership

walking to....

...our beach-hut!!! 

We went for a little stroll when we got there, mainly just to let the dog sniff about and pick up some shells, but its was SUPER hot... I knew that i was supposed to be taking it easy, so despite my brain telling me that i should really go for a power-walk along the beach, cos walking on sand is even better than walking on flat ground.... (blahblahBLAH) I decided to just sit down on the lounger and rest up.

my beach boo... <3

It actually wasnt that hard to just sit and rest. cos i have been SO freaking tired this weekend. i dunno if its all the emotional and mental exhaustion thats getting to me... or maybe its the heat? or maybe just cos i am actually letting myself stop for a hot minute. either way, my body is saying PLEASE lets have a bit more of this good resty stuff. So i shud listen to it, right?? it feels so inherently wrong, but it cant be. its needed. its what my body wants. right??? I mean, it doesnt matter if i gain weight, cos i need to do that anyways... what im doing is the right thing, no matter how bad it gets to me and how guilty i feel. 

the reality is: I am NOT lazy, I am NOT going to fall apart because i dont exercise lots. 

what IS going to happen is: I am going to get better and feel stronger and therefore be healthy and able to do all the things i want to do. i will not "lose" fitness. Fitness will come when im fit to be fit!

So in conclusion... 

i quite like beach days

and relaxing isnt SO bad, i guess!

:-)