reality

Whoa there. where is this week going?!?! cant believe its thursday already... what have i even DONE with this week?!? 

Today was another day in the unit. snooooore! i got weighed tho and DuDAAAh, i gained back the weight id lost from being ill! (what a surprise... can you say "water weight" much?!?!)

The nurse is such a douche tho... when she weighed me she was all "OOH look, you've put ALL THAT WEIGHT BACK ON"... i swear, she is the most irritating person i know, she literally has NO social skills whatsoever. i mean who talks to a recovering anorexic like that?!? its insane!

Anyways, i was determined to get stuck in with the eats today, so no issues there. Nom Nom Nom. i had the usual brekkie & snacks, chicken casserole for lunch... nothing too out of the ordinary. OH except we got a newbie in today! apparently there was another one who started yesterday, but she didnt make it back for day 2... haha. oh well! This one seems nice enough, altho to be honest... i wont really get to know her since im only in 2days a week. i barely get to catch up with all the others in that time (altho i do try, gotta get the gossip!) 

It was nutrition group today too, plus one-on-ones with the dietician. all good. i like the productivity vibes i get from these. Dietician went through what id had over the blip of a weekend, and we discussed what to do about getting my dinners on course (i failed epically at that MP increase last week) basically she said i HAVE to get my dinners up to scratch and gain some more weight to get over my plateau, otherwise she will up my day meals and shove some nasty ready meal puddings my way with lunch (grosssss!) Since my day meals are already pretty chocka-blok, i MUST get my head on and do this. plus i know that if i dont start doing it now and my weight goes up anyways, i will then panic and not be able to do it later... d'you know what i mean?? its easier to do it when you have been told you have to get it up, but if you dont manage it then and yet you STILL gain, it becomes a gazillion times harder!

So that was my day. It poured with rain just as i left the unit so i got royally soaked :-( and as i was nearly home a bus went past me too close and sprayed a load of grimy road gutter water all over my legs. REALLY?!?! thanks karma, what did i do to YOU today?!

What did make me laugh tho, was despite the rain as i walked through town i saw the mobile x-factor buses parked up doing auditions! Im a nosy one, so i HAD to peek a look.... there were sooo many teenyboppers standing outside in the rain, waiting to go into this little tent and show their (ahem) talent. 

ill look forwards to seeing most of them in the bloopers episode! 

hahahahahaha.

Nearly the weekend folks and i better get some wrapping paper tomo, cossss its the mumatrons bday on monday!!! this weekend is a london-bound one so we can all do something together to celebrate it. Fingers crossed we get some sunshine, i have yet to find out the plans but i know they wont be as good if there's rain involved. Still, not to worry... Ive gotta get through another days work tomo first!!!