i wish i could be a spa-day-lady

Ohmywooooooord, i had such a nice day yesterday!!

Seriously, i could definitely become one of those "ladies who lunch"... you know, the ones who kiss goodbye to their (probably wealthy and gorgeous) husbands in the morning, drop the kids off at school and then spend the day meeting the other yummy mummies for a yoga class, followed by some nice lunch and then a manicure and massage and.....

Um, please could someone reality check me?! cos i could go on!!!

Im sure i would get bored after a while, i mean i like to exercise my BRAIN too after all!!! haha. But after yesterdays pamper-sesh, i can see how people get used to being luxuriated and treating their bodies to nice things.... its not something that i do for myself all that often!

But despite being a nice thing - It was also a challenge for me. Cos we were going to be sitting about relaxing all day (so no activity - unless you count bobbing about in the jacuzzi!!) and it would be a FULL day, so we would be eating lunch there too.... which i wont lie, is still majorly scary :s Not to mention the fact that my friend wanted to get there early, which meant that i had to get up and eat breakfast earlier than i wouldve normally done, when im not hungry for it... and that always throws me (well, my ED) off balance.

Buuuut anyways. I managed to eat abit before we headed off, but i took some snacks in my bag for in case i got hungry there.... When we arrived we were super excited by how nice the hotel was (Just check out that mahoosive fancy christmas tree!!!) We arrived at the Spa area and got a quick tour before changing into our robes and heading to the "relaxation room" to unwind and wait for our treatments. This was no usual waiting area tho, there were freaking FOUR POSTER BEDS!!! there was also a whole pile of magazines to read and complimentary teas and coffees (which my friend, who is a BIG tea lover... made full use of!!) 

After a snoozy lazy relax, we went in for our massages. which were lush... it felt good just to let someone ease out the muscles in my achey shoulders and it was all i could do not to fall asleep on the table! (altho to be fair, i was falling asleep everywhere... it was so nice and warm and i am just so tired at the moment :s) The only thing was that when i get a massage, i want them to really WORK my muscles... i get alot of tension in my shoulders and neck, so i like to actually feel like those knots have been loosened, yknow...?! which i think she could've done more of... but on the other hand, i dont blame her - alot of therapists would be worried to apply too much pressure - given my size....

After the massage, we went down the the bar restaurant place to get some food... Now our deal didnt actually include a free lunch, but we saw that most of the other package deals DID, so we thought we'd try and be sneaky and get ours included too.... which after a little innocent white lying, we did!!! result!!! it was damn lucky too, cos everything on the menu was tres cher. i gues you dont charge basic sandwich prices in a fancy place like that!! Anyways, as per usual - i had to wiggle about some of my order so that i could be dairy free (they didnt have a whole lots of choice since basically everything came with cheese or something dairy in it!) So in the end i just opted for a chicken salad. Which was kindof a letdown for me... it was a BASIC chicken salad, as in leaves, dressing and a lot of chicken!!! but it was tasty... and it didnt make me freak out, which was good - cos lunch is quite a hurdle for me. My friend however (bless her, she has NO food worries at all!) had a egg mayonnaise sandwich on white bread with chips on the side (which she covered in more mayonnaise too....) GAH! why cant i eat normal stuff like that and not worry...?? :-( i mean even the fact that she CHOSE the white bread bloomer option wouldve been an issue for me. i wouldve always gone brown bread. But what difference does it make, really??? Its all in my head. So damn you anorexia for what you've inflicted on my life!!!!!

Sorry, sorry... rant done!

But it was refreshing to see that she is totes ok with food and all that.... cos as i said before. she's kindof a benchmark for what i would be like if i hadnt had all this happen to me. She is the same heigh/same build etc... and she ISNT fat!!! sure, she has a little belly going on, but it looks cute! she has shape and she has soft curves and she doesnt worry about eating and being active all the time... she just accepts what and how she is. and frankly - my GOD am i jealous of that. i would trade my washboard stomach for her little belly pooch anyday, if it meant i could be ok with myself again.....

After lunch we hit the pool for a quick swim-jacuzzi-sauna sesh. It was nice to be in the water again... usually its such a big deal for me, worrying about people making comments etc. but i didnt care this time. i was like - "yeah, im too skinny. but i cant exactly do anything about that right at this moment can i?!?!" so instead of drawing more attention to it, i just slipped out of my robe and let my bikini do the talking :p Luckily there werent that many people in there anyways and i figured nobody can see you in the steam room/sauna anyways!!!

After this we got dressed and headed back to the spa area for our mani-pedi's... we were abit late so had to choose our colours in a rush (luckily we'd had a quick look earlier) My friend went for a pale bluey-grey colour and i chose a rich dark green.... HOWEVER, since we were the last appt's of the day, when we'd finished we had to change and go out with wet nails!!! Annoyingly, they didnt have any of those pedicure flipflop things, so i decided to try and cut out the toes of the slippers we'd been given... much to my friends amusement! It was a case of slip-slopping back out to the car, which I think i managed pretty well - even if i did look like an absolute Eejit! :p

So all in all, a very relaxing and worthwhile day.... yes, it had its stressful moments but i survived and i enjoyed myself!!! So now im about to put myself out of my comfort zone AGAIN as i agreed to go out with her again tonight! Apparently her friend is super keen to go dancing, so we're dressing up and hitting the town. OHMYGAAAD!!! i havent been out on a girly dancing night in ages... i always feel too self-concious and it interrupts my evening routine which makes me edgy and since i always get so tired in the evenings its hard to find the motivation to get myself going in the first place! But ive bailed on her enough times, so tonight i HAVE to go.... 

So there you have it. the crazydays continue.... altho i am writing off this weekend so that i can finally try and get some work done! I need to catch some zz's with a nice long lie-in, then i need to get up and NOT stretch (i havent walked so that front is going well) and then maybeeee go out for lunch with the mothership when she gets back on sunday :-)

Till then Party Peoples... 

Have yourselves a rockin' friday night!

xx