Just wanna say a BIG thankyou for all your messages and support.
you guys are the bestest!
im happy to say that today has been a good day for me :-) i feel like my reactions yesterday made me think alot about how im approaching the idea of recovery... cos how other people live their lives and what they chose to eat or dont eat is their business. not mine. and that is something i dont think i really thought about before.
I think i became a bit too dependant on knowing that people were eating as much or more than me in order to make me feel 'safe'.... i now see that i need to focus on what i eat for me. My body is the one that needs nourishing and so whatever intake may be suitable for a normal person, is clearly not suitable for me!
This insight has made me feel alot more comfortable about eating, which is a relief cos yesterday i found it a real struggle to eat enough, not for want of trying, i just couldnt muster up any hunger. but thats gone now and im about to make one of my ever-famous roast dinners, which never fails to cheer me up! :-) PLUS, i finally got my letter thru from the therapists....
YIPEEEEE!
I have my assessment appt a week on thurs, which is still a while away (id have liked it to be tomo!) but at least i know that its coming.
So thankyou again for keeping me on track and also for making me feel like im not the only person in the world who's freaked out over something silly. you guys are fab and i really appreciated it.....
here's to the next step on this crazy journey!
big loves
x
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