good? friday

only one day till my bday!!!!!!

sorry, just had to get that out the way :-p

Man it is SO nice not to have to worry about setting alarms in the morning and rushing to get ready for work. i lurrrrrve the holidays. ive gotta say, 3 & 1/2 weeks off for easter is pretty nice going. hope everyone else out there is having a nice easter weekend, i never realised good friday was a bank hol. so all shops closed and all supermarkets PACKED with people. (i learnt this the hard way as we went on a family mission to the supermarche) 

Still it was nice to pick out some eats for the weekend, even if i do find it hard when my sis is around. she just makes me feel so bad about myself with all the little put downs and snide remarks about being anorexic. its not exactly supportive, but i guess it hurts her to see me like this and she's lashing out? still... give a girl a break?!

I was pleased wth myself too, cos i picked out an easter egg!! oh yes, i got me a tasty lookin malteser badboy.... 

So this weekend is gonna be all out eating. Got a big family meal tonight, then all out for bday tomo, special brekkie.... (and there better  be balloons!!) and out to a restaurant for dinner. plus cake. yeeeeesh. its all abit nervewracking, combined with the fact that i have become completely sedentary (my bad knees have been playing up lately and i want to make sure im rested up for skiing) so its hard and im struggling abit with negative thoughts, but ive gotta pull through... i just keep tellin myself.

I can do this

Anyway, i can hear my mum and sis bickering downstairs cos i turned down their offer of a hot cross bun. (i dont even LIKE hot cross buns, and ive just had a bowl of cereal)

But i better get back downstairs and fight my corner. Its a losing battle tho, so theres no point.

I know i shud be eating that hot cross bun, but im stubborn and i dont want to eat something i dont like just for the sake of eating it to make a point. Ill eat everything on my plate at tonight's dinner, so that shud be good enough.

im taking baby steps.....