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 I am SO freaking stressed out right now :(

I have had an uber-busy week again and i totally wanted to have a chilled saturday to catch up with things and write a nice blog post telling you guys all about what ive been upto and the boys visit and all that jazz... but OBVIOUSLY that would be too easy. my life couldnt be that simple could it?!?!

in a word... NO!!

cos my fridge has decided to pack up... 

As in - its WARM in there. 

My fridge is essentially now just another cupboard! :(

Why meeeeeeee?!?! i swear we must have the worst luck with electrical appliances in this house, the oven door broke last month, my lights were playing up, the shower has been a problem in the past... not to mention the BIG issue with the broadband. we've only JUST got the internet back on again, its always off and on due to an ongoing bt fault on the line thats been blighting us for nearly FOUR YEARS!!!! gah! its enough to go and live in a teepee in a field with a bunch of hippie tree-huggers!! (but i bet theyd still have wi-fi :p)

Anyways, so a few weeks ago the freezer was playing up and it felt like it was overheating or something - so i told mum and surprise surprise she did NADA about it. Well over the past week, ive noticed that the fridge hasnt been getting very cold... i thought it was the temp gage, so i adjusted it and hoped itd be ok. but its got steadily warmer and warmer and yesterday - it was room temp. As in - NOT a fridge! Urhhh. I havent been home so much so i havent been able to do anything about it (not that id know what to do anyways, since the manuals are nowhere to be found!) And mums not back till tonight... Naturally, im freaking out cos all the food is going bad and it smells and i dont know what to do! Waaah! I get very anxious about wasting stuff anyways, so you can imagine how this is getting to me :s PLUS eating warm soft food really isnt very nice when you expect it to be cold and crisp. 

big Boo Hoo's basically!

Anyways i wont rant on, cos it must be pretty damn boring to read. But there you go... Im not enjoying today so far. Plus as i was trying to ring up the electrics shop to find out what the hell i shud do, i had a mini blood sugar crash cos i was all stressed and anxious and i felt my body surge and it was like i was gonna pass out. I know thats a warning sign, so i started looking for stuff to try and get myself back together, but the food was just making me feel sick cos everything is all bloody WARM! so i grabbed a coke - not the best choice! haha, but at least i got some sugar into me.... now im just taking a minute to chill out in my room. i need to relax..... stress is NOT good.

Its scary when that happens cos it reminds me that i really need to start looking after my body properly... not this half-hearted "get on with it" style that ive adapted. Cos im not invincible and my body isnt strong enough to cope with all the shit i put on it. Its not fair to put it under unecessary stress anyways... why do i torture myself so much? why dont i deserve to relax and sleep and put my feet up and just LIVE. Theres no reason to it! But its so easy to turn a blind-eye to it and just carry on regardless, ignoring youre bodies request for rest and fuel and care. But the brutal truth is that you dont always get a warning sign before something bad happens.... We need to learn to care for our bodies NOW - not later. by then it might already be too late.

RIGHT! And on that happy note - im gonna chip off!!! Sorry if that got abit debbie-downer on you! i will try and get the weeks round-up posted in a more upbeat chipper post later this afternoon! Hopefully by then, things have calmed down abit here... Enjoy your saturday guys :) xx