yikes

well well well... Time certainly HAS flown by!!

I cant believe tomorrow is my LAST day at school... my last day as a teacher at the place i have worked for so long... the place where i have seen pupils turn from snivelly little year 7 kids into 6foot tall almost adults doing their GCSE's and getting into trouble!! 

Its weird to think that ive been teaching at this school for nearly five years. I mean that makes me sound so old!!! but to be fair, i was a fresh-faced bub when i started, barely out of uni! (aside from the year or so of hell where i was trying to recover from my M.E - basically bed bound and incapable of dressing myself, relying on the mothership and thinking "this is it" - buuuut lets not reminisce over that part eh!?!) haha.

Yup, five years is a long time, but it really feels like its flown by. I was clearing my desk yesterday and it felt so weird finding little bits of paper and things that id kept but totes forgotten about! I was lucky actually, cos my lovely teacher bud Nikki offered to pick me up after i got back from my year 10 london trip (it was fab, by the way!) and drive BACK to work even tho she'd been there all day, so that i could get all my boxes and stuff back to mine... bless her!! Id have struggled trying to walk it, theres no way it'd all fit in my little backpack!

But seeing it today, empty desk space. Oooh it was abit sad... No tears yet tho! Cos it still doesnt entirely feel real. I guess cos everyone ELSE is getting ready for the holidays too. i dunno, im sure it will kick in when they all have to go back in september and i still have a few weeks till i leave for Oz. Ive promised ill go in and meet my girlies for lunch, might just give the kids a bit of a shock at the same time! haha.... Im mean :p

Hopefully by sept ill have managed to gain a reasonable amount of weight too, so ill look ready and able to venture off into the world a happier and healthier clemface :)

So thats today, basically! I reckon its gonna be a muchos busy day tomo tho, so i thought id pop in and say howdy NOW - in case i cant over the next day or two! Im going pretty much straight upto london after school finishes. Cos on friday i have a day of fun, going to my various doctors for my usual tests and reviews - it sucks, but its best to get them all done in one chunk of time. Plus my sis has gone away for the week, so i will have two days before she gets back to be abe to stay in the flat with the mothership. Its sad that i cant stay there when she's there, but ive kindof come to terms with the fact that we need to NOT be in each others presence right now... maybe after i get back from travelling, things will be different... i dunno, just better. Time is a great healer after all! But yeah, for now - i cant handle her drama. I need to focus on ME and that means there isnt space for toxic people in my life. 

Anyways, on that note. Im gonna go and raid my wardrobe for something nice to wear on my LAST DAY!!!! urhhh, then i have to start planning what to say in my leaving speech. All the dparting teachers have to say a few words at the end of year assembly... and what a surprise that im SOOOO not prepared! Why cant i just say, "thanks guys - be seeeeein ya!!" ....short and sweet, no?! you KNOW it makes more sense! xx