yes?

Sorry ive been somewhat AWOL peeps. 

I actually been pretty DARN busy!!! I will do a proper update soon, cos i am off to the seaside today with a group of friends... we are having a picnic (altho saying that - it maybe an indoor picnic as it has been pouring with rain for the past hour :p)

I have been keeping myself busy trying to be out of the house, going to town - taking a book and sitting and eating my lunch in the park (so that i actually HAVE lunch) yeah, its been nice!

me at the park with my lunch&book 

:)

Ive also cut my activity down waaaaaay down. In fact, on tues - i went round my friends house and since i was picked up outside mine in the car, driven there and then we sat in the garden all day, had lunch and then i was dropped back at mine - i did NO walking at all!!! it was an achievement which im pretty proud of. I wont say it wasnt hard - cos my anxiety was tres high. Ed was yelling at me, saying i was super lazy and i should restrict to compensate cos they had probably already done some exercise in the morning (one guy said he'd already been on a run) before i came and that meant id done LESS than them and was therefore BAD. 

But i over-ruled it... i need more rest than them ANYWAY. And frankly, who cares if they did more than me?! if i do something i shud be doing it for enjoyment not punishment....

So my mindset is slowly shifting. Its not easy and i still havent managed to get my eating up to the recommended amounts. But im working on it... im not going to FORCE myself to eat. i know that just ends up in me struggling mentally and feeling sick. Im just subtly shifting things the other way... meaning - less activity + more food.

im hoping that the ED wont catch on till its already too late and im used to this! 

haha... Shh, dont tell!

Right, im off to get myself dressed and ready for the day. I dont know when ill post next, cos tomo me and my friend Jess are off to a festival (the one where we are staying at my dads) So that shud be a weekend of fun and frolics! I will be back on Sunday, so ill try and take lots of pics to show you all when i get home. oh and OBVS lots of foody goodies... festivals are ripe with food opportunities, so i will be putting in my best "challenge-clem" efforts!!!

Have a fab rest of the week and ill catch up with you all soon! 

xx