heres the lowdown.

howdy ho peeps...

Im home after my quick tripette up to london. MAN its been a busy few days, there has been ALOT going on since i last posted! Here's the lowdown...

Thursday was my last day at work!!! Awww. it was kinda sad. saying goodbye to everyone and stuff. But it still hasnt really kicked in, cos everybody else was leaving for the summer break too - but it IS nice to know that i no longer have to put pressure on myself to be busy and responsible and all that fast-paced WAAAH stuff. i can finally (try) and relax and take care of myself now. Im done :)

We had a lovely leavers form party, me and my friend joined forms to have a little party with all our kids - we played various challenge games... here is a particularly epic game of "chubby bunny". SOoOo funny!!!

my lil chubby bunnies!

After we let the kids out, all the other teachers got together for the end of year STAFF party! There were a few goodbye speeches etc (mine was a shocker, totes cheesy - but its gotta be done!!) Then most people got on to the drinking, free bar yo!! I wasnt drinking cos i wasnt staying for the "after" after party... which involved people going out for a curry then on into town for more drinking... Since i had to head up to london asap, i only stayed for the first part. But i heard it was prettttty crazy :p

beeeeyotiful flowers the staff gave me...

gotta love those leaving pressies!

i wont bore you with all the details about london - since i was mainly up there to go to all my doctors and specialists to do regular maintenance check ups and make sure my blood condition is still stable... Borrrring! But i did meet up with my popsicle yesterday afternoon and we went and had a drink in a cafe near oxford street (which is near where my doctors are...) It was really nice to see him, i dont get to hang out with my dad that much - he looked well! I asked him what his secret was and he said that now he isnt working as much, he isnt stressing so much. He isnt having to keep getting up and dragging himself to work etc so he feels better and happier.... Well THAT struck a chord - since its exactly what i need to be doing!!! So it was good to sort of compare stories and generally catch up. Im seeing him again in two weeks to go to this festival with my friend, we're going to crash at his place (first time staying with him and his new partner... BIT scared!) but ill have my friend, so it wont be too "forced" if you know what i mean!

Aaaand now im back home after a VERY hot saturday. This weather is tropical - im loving it! Altho not so much when you're sat in a hot car with a panting dog... Hmm.

Tomo im hoping to go down to the beach with the mothership. We are trying to do more together now that its the holidays - but we had a bit of a barney lastnight about (surprise surprise) ED stuff. Its so hard cos i know its annoying for her to have to deal with my shit and have me talk and blab on about it all the freaking time (i swear - she must be bored stiff!) but its in my head all the time and sometimes i just need to get it out.... but she often reacts badly to some of the things i say or she makes certain comments that are hella triggering or just annoying and non-supportive and i flip. I know she means well but she can be SO.. UN..HELPFUL.. it amazes me. she always moans about how im not making any progress and she always focuses on the negatives. Its like none of the successes i have are actually worth celebreating cos im still too thin. There isnt a quick fix cure! She likes to think she knows everything - but she really doesnt! and that makes me angry - which i then regret and feel bad about.

MAN its hard! 

does anyone else have family issues with ED's & recovery?

But hey-ho... i told her that maybe its best that i just do things my way and not try to involve her. cos i DO wish she could just take all this responsibility and hassle and fear off my hands - like you would in a hospital environment. but she cant do that... so it makes me upset and angry and then SHE gets upset and angry and it all blows up. again.

Sometimes i find it much easier when she's away & i can just get on with things by myself....

but i guess thats all part of the challenge isnt it.

WE SHALL PERSERVERE!!!

haha, take care you guys...

love ya's

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