Brrr!

What happened to spring you guys!?!

Its like SUDDENLY winter is back with a vengeance... its freezing here :s It was snowing this morning in london, now we're home i just hope it doesnt follow us back here!

So this weekend. What can i say. 

It was.... interesting. 

If somewhat pointless.

The whole reason we went upto London this weekend was to a) celebrate an early bday weekend with the roomie and b) celebrate mothers day.

The mothership didnt have a fair, so we COULD have spent it here at home... but we figured it'd be nice to take the roomie upto stay in mum and the sisters london place, make the most of the fact that my sis was away, go out for a nice meal on saturday night and then have a chilled sunday brunch morning and walk along the flower market on columbia road.

But as it happened. It didnt.... 

and thats the BUM point.

I think it was doomed from the start... I went upto london later than we had planned, on sat afternoon. The roomie went up the night before to try and sort things out with her gf (they broke up, then kindof made up, its so dramatic...) So on my advice, i said go up and face-to-face it! I was trying to be a good friend! I didnt mind leaving out some of the plans for the weekend cos it was better that she go, sort things out & feel happier for when i got up and we started the weekend... thats all good, right?!

Hmm. well i got up there and despite arranging to meet at the train station. They were still in the pub, sooo i walked over there and met them and we sat there for abit having a drink. which was fun, yeah - but we were supposed to go to the tate for this exhibition...! well that didnt happen :( her gf wasnt up for it and heaven forbid we stick to our ORIGINAL plans (which didnt actually involve her, but hey...)

Eventually i said we better get going cos we were supposed to be taking mum out for this mothers day meal... but on the way home i realised that roomie didnt have any of her stuff - which is when she told me "oh, i hope you dont mind... im gonna stay over at L's again tonight".... 

OKAAAAY. so there goes the next part of our weekend plan. Cos we were supposed to have a nice lazy brunch on columbia road before the flower market then go to brick lane after. Well apparently not. Cos that wasnt gonna happen if she was staying elsewhere. So (with good reason!) by the time we got to the flat, things were abit awkward and frosty. I wasnt in the best frame of mind anyways since the last time id been at the flat was the horrible christmas debacle with the fam and altho i knew my sis wasnt here this time - it still made me feel edgy, like i didnt belong there.... 

We went out to dinner and it was nice :) we went to the little italian pizza place that mum likes and i had a yummy grilled chicken salad, which i know... is kindof safe. YES, its just a chicken salad and sounds abit lame but it WAS what i wanted! and i cant quite face a pizza yet, even without the cheese/dairy. it still scares me. But this chicken thing was the tits!!! i got it with a load of roasted veg and it had roasted walnuts and bits of pizza base in it as croutons, so it was actually damn tasty!

After that the roomie headed back to her gf's and i went back to the flat for an evening with the mumatron... which was fine. not exactly the night we'd planned! But it was okay, good to spend some time with mum instead.... we watched "made in dagenham", which was an alright film in the end! or maybe thats just cos there wasnt much alternative. haha :p

This morning i woke up super early to the poochums licking my face... (i was sleeping on a mattress on the floor) URHHHGG!!! after that little treat, i bumbled down to my mums bed and dive-bombed her, which the dog loved too! we all snuggled for abit before getting up and going to get the papers etc and stuff for brekkies... OH and i got a text from the roomie saying that since she hadnt "spent much time" with her gf (umm REALLY!?) so she was gonna stay longer and get a train home instead of getting a lift with us. WHAT a surprise.... And thats where i gave up. She was, i guess, signing herself off from doing ANYTHING with us on sunday. So whatever.... i had lost interest in trying to redeem the weekend we'd planned by now anyways. BOOOOO to her, its her loss!

Mums friend came over instead and we all went to the flower market, looked in the shops and had a coffee... ooh, i found some FAB glasses (which ive been searching for for ages!) and picked up some cards and bits and bobs too. I love that place, it always inspires me to get all creative!

It was getting really cold by this time and i was fully ready to hop in the van and crank up the temperature for a nice warm car-nap! Mmmm. i slept the whole way and only woke up when we were pulling up outside our house... perfect timing eh!

Now im home ive just had a snack and im in my trackies ready for a sunday night slob-out before its back to the usual mayhem tomo :) Im pretty chuffed with myself for not having done ANY isolated exercise today... no stretches and no walking on my own! all we did was walk out of the flat to the flower market and back, everything else was driven to in the car. 

Its still hard for me to get over the "youre gonna get fat, youre so lazy, you dont need to eat" feelings... i DO feel pretty guilty right now. but its ED talk, its not reality and i mustnt listen to the lies. FAT is not a feeling. so i refuse to give in to the guilt telling me that i dont deserve food and i must have ballooned from not walking more. its madness....

food is FINE 

and rest is RIGHT!!!

I hope you all had a good weekend and lets all keep our fingers crossed that this cold weather doesnt last... Come on spring, bring me some sunshine!!!

if i cant have sunshine, at least i can have bottoms!!!

artwork from columbia road gallery