relax o'clock!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOitstheholidays!!!!

oh yeah babaaaaay! school is out and i am (equally) out. literally. like a LIGHT.

Yesterday i got home from work, sat down for a second and woke up 3hours later. say whaaa?!

Ahh, today has been a bit of an up-down-side-to-side WIGGLE IT day. im here, there and everywhere. AGAIN. do i do it to myself?! who knows. im a one woman busy machine. Hmm! Well, it started off ok, since i wasnt feeling too hot yest i planned to wake up late and enjoy a lie-in... (i was gonna have a nutritionist appt at 10am, but i had planned to re-schedule) I was thinking it was best to re-schedule anyways, cos ive been finding the whole therapy/treatment team thing a bit poo at the mo. and i always find myself getting more obsessed with the weighing than the actual appt (probs cos thts the only part thats ever consistent, we dont exactly DO much in the appts.... hpmfh!) but this morning, i woke up early as usual. DAMN you body clock!!! so i figured, meh... i might as well go and see what my weight is doing. i predicted down some cos ive had this nasty "im-tired-and-stressed-and-my-digestive-issues-are-the-bane-of-my-life" tummy bug for a couple of days now, and even tho last night i was tempted to restrict in case i DID go to the appt, i didnt... i was like SCREW it. im eating what i feel like....

Still, it didnt pay off cos i WAS under today. not majorly, but i did get quite the ticking off from the nutritionist!!! she gave me the "you arent progressing at a good enough pace, we might have to discharge you if you dont prove youre trying to recover, yadda yadda YAH". She is a nag, but i love her! and its important for her to nag me, cos nobody else does and she sure as hell doesnt take any of my crap! Anytime i try to pipe in with an excuse, she's like "AH, STOP right thurrrr lady!" its too funny. im just the same with my pupils, so i guess it takes one to know one :-p

She wrote me out a new MP to follow for over the holidays and i left feeling okay. altho i worry that if i want to go over that MP, i wont purely cos it hasnt be "permitted" y'know... stupid i know, but i will try and ignore that dumb ass ED brain, it never did me any favours before!!! plus she has nixed all the exercise. NO unneccesary walking, no "only 30mins a day" shenanigans. she said i shud only do what others are doing as part of our day-to-day plans. its gonna be hard as nails, but i think it will help me get over my need to move, especially when its so freaking cold outside! stay in, stay warm, keep energy IN. it makes sense... cos you wouldnt turn the heating on in your house and then leave the door wide open would you!?!?

(apologies for my dodgy metaphors... they make sense to me! well, mostly.... :-p)

So today i am vegging. i walked home from the appt, so i guess that is me done. BOO. i want to get outside, its a nice day for a change!!! i might go out to the shop to help mum for a bit, but i will take the quick route and only if i find myself stressing about being at home. i want to keep my mind clear for tonight when im going upto london for the annual (uh-ohhhh) family xmas dinner with my dad and sis. Its been drama-central i tell you. First my mum wanted to come, then she wasnt "allowed" by my dad, then my sis said she wouldnt go if the mumatron wouldnt and my present for my dad almost didnt get delivered in time. DRAMA!!!!

haha. i dunno. its gonna be madness... it always is. but i refuse to take part in the stressing. i just wanna have a nice dinner & not be ass-chillingly cold getting there and back! (im a simple gal!!) Im staying up with our family friends with mum before she goes to her fair tomo morning... i will join her abit later (she starts at like 5am!!) so i can mosey down and get some xmas shopping done before we head home. Phew! its non-stop over here! in fact, im looking forwards to the weekend, cos that will give me a second to pause before me, the sis and the mumatron (possibly) head off to France for xmas. are we arent we?! WHO KNOWS!!! flights havent been booked but we DO have a place to stay.

Are you keeping up with my crazy life?! cos im feeling abit like those cartoons where the body moves and the eyes nose and mouth are left behind!!!

metaphor for my life?!

Oh well. i will try to keep afloat of all this madness and fill you in on the deets when i get a second! In the meantime, enjoy the festivities... cos its not long till CHRISTMAS now!!! :-)