snow?!

I kid you not, i just had SNOW!!!! ok, so it wasnt alot of snow, in fact to start with i kindof thought i just happened to be walking downwind of someone with bad dandruff... but still, there it was! a couple of solitary flakes, ooooh winter is coming. No hiding from it now! (and might i add, my fingers feel like ICICLES right now, i need me some proper winter gloves, with sheepskin lining, like ugg boots for hands. mmmmmm. i love uggs. they are like feety heaven...

i wouldnt mind if my fingers looked THIS cool tho!

OK STOP!! what am i doing?!? im rambling off again!!! i really need to get this in check, its turning into a serious habit... i mean, feety heaven?! who writes this stuff?!?!

Today has been a nice day actually, despite the bitter chill. I had a formal observation at work yesterday (we have them every term) and it went well!!! i got my feedback back and the guy said i was only a few marks off outstanding! YAY! But he said he didnt wanna give it to me this time as it was his first time assessing me and that wouldnt give him much scope for next time! (OHemGEEEE, is this for real!?) i mean i know i love my job and i like to think im good at what i do... but sometimes i think that with all the other shizz going on in my life at the mo, that i get distracted and dont give it my all.... well its nice to know that i can still pull it out the bag when needs be :-p

Moving on, im glad to report that ive been feeling alot more upbeat lately :-) ive had more energy and since i upped my iron intake again ive felt less lethargic too (my doc told me my iron levels had fallen below again so i had to upp my pills to once every day again)

I also think the feelings of restriction are fading a little, not completely, GOD no. i still get the nasty urges to compensate with exercise and not to have that big dinner, but im trying not to let it dictate my life so much. Im trying to see MYSELF rather than seeing my anorexic side. This is helping, cos the more i separate myself from the ED, the more i find myself remembering what life is like without it. Ive found that by splitting the divide between the anorexic me and the normal me, i can dictate the good thoughts alot better, i CAN overrule ED's hold on me, i just need to keep fighting it, chipping away at its power until i see it for what it really is...

a nasty, cowardly disease that has no place in my life anymore.

HAHA! and y'know what... it feels really good saying that!

WOOOOOO!!!

lets hear it for empowerment!

:-)