OHHH..... no

So today is the first day of the inspection at work.... 

i hope its going well.

Sadly i wouldnt know, because

IM STUCK IN BED WITH A VOMITING STOMACH BUG 

:(

Uhhhh you guys, this is SO not fun. id actually prefer to be at work having someone observe and critique my lessons right now, if it meant i didnt have to feel like this. I HATE being ill, im just no good at it... i get frustrated and try to get up and get on with things - which makes me feel worse and then i hate that i feel worse but its my own fault so i hate that too!!! 

i also HATE that im letting down my fellow teachers who no doubt have to cover my classes at work and lets not forget to mention that my anorexia HATES HATES HATES that i am lying about in bed doing sweet FA.

Bleurgh.

So it all came on yesterday... i was feeling abit iffy in the afternoon but i assumed it was just my usual tummy troubles and tried to just get on with it. But when i got home, it was clar that i wasnt feeling so hot. I couldnt face the sight of food and the thought of getting up once id laid down on my bed seemed like way to big of an effort... so i lay. and i hoped that it would pass.

But it didnt. 

it got worse.

My stomach literally ballooned swollen and i was getting some very funky noises and spasms coming from it. (still am :s) I felt like my stomach was going to split open - seriously, i wondered if maybe there was a little food alien in there that was going to burst out. i almost wished there was!! 

After writhing about for what seemed like hours, with my mama checking on me every so often... i cracked. Aaaaand to save those who are squeamish from ever visiting my blog again - ill just save when you have a stomach upset like this... it doesnt leave you with much pride! im just glad the mothership was there to mop my feverish brow, altho i feel bad - it being her first night back at home for over a week! OH well, thats what mothers are for. right?!

Anyways. a few nasty sickbowls later - i managed to get some sleep. This morning i was fully intending to go into work for the inspection, till mum told me (in no uncertain terms) to get my bony ass back into bed - i wasnt going anywhere!

Im kindof grateful for that, cos i am still a hot mess. my stomach, altho settling abit (i have managed to eat some porridge and drunk many mugs of mint tea sweetened with spoonfuls of honey) its still very sore and im a wobbler on the occasions that i do try and make it to the bathroom... even moving over in bed makes me feel sick. So not the best recipe for trying to go to work!

I just hope to GOD that i can sleep it off today and go in tomo... i really dont want them to think im skiving off cos i dont want to be inspected. thats soooo not the case - i had all my lessons planned out and everything!!!

Anyways, im starting to feel abit floopy after sitting up and staring at this screen... so im gonna lay back down and sleeeeeep.

Hope you are all feeling fine and dandy and nothing like my sorry self!

Im sure ill be back on form in no time... but for now, ive gotta embrace rest-time.

Wish me Luck!!!