Monday glumday.... 

I was so tired this morning, i almost didnt get up to do my stretches... Mum left for paris this morn, so everything was abit rushed. Still i got off to school ok and (hopefully) she shud be safe and sound 'dans paris a ce moment'. lucky her!

Ive had a weird day. everything has dragged... and ive got so much more to do now what with taking on N's timetable. people keep piling more and more on me and im starting to get a bit overloaded. (cue my face on the body of a heavily laden donkey)

I had my first class with the other year 11's. its a smaller class, but my god do they take more work. they just dont wanna bother doing anything. lazies. then cos they havent had me in any classes, they act all cheeky and muck around. But i cant inflict muc

h discipline on them cos theyre not my class and it feels weird. plus theres not much i can do, cos there into the coursework stages so it wouldnt do much to put them in detention anyway :-( hopefully the more i tak them they'll settle down abit. fingers crossed!

Then i had an email asking me to do the prospective year 7 scholarship interviews next week. Grrreat. so i have to schedule time off to interview external pupils coming into the senior school and pick the ones who qualify for scholarship. urgggh. Still its something to add to my qualifications, so i cant complain. Also gotta oversee the junior art scholarships, but that wont be so hard... more just looking at their work and picking the best! easypeasy, right?!?

So a busy busy day. which to top it off was made more stressful by the addition of a text from dad. he's still pushing for a meet and do dinner thing. Im a little bit wary tbh, im not sure why he is so desperate to see me on my own, and why so sudden and urgent. i dont want to be pushed about whats happening in my life and when am i going to meet up with L, meet the family etc. its all abit too complicated right now and i know mum feels awkward about us combining families. i dont know what to do..... i just need abit more time to think, i mean dnt u think ive got enough to think about right now!!! 

Stupidly thought it wud be a good time to ring sis and ask her about bday plans. GRUMP. she doesnt want to do anything cos we cant do it on her actual bday.. Gee, grow up much!? i hardly ever celebrate my bday on the actual day, im just happy we can all get together at all! but now she says she doesnt want dad there at all. even tho he helped her out with her maldives trip. oh well, you cant force something on someone.

So now im going to curl up in a little ball of cosyness away from all people, so nobody can find me and ask me to do something for them!!! Eat some dindins, watch some mindless tv (Ooh, I have a lovefilm arrival!!! 17 again with zac efron. Cheeeeese alert!)

Then i think i'll have an early night o im fresh and ready to introduce the new supply teacher to the crazy art dept tomo morn. Arghh!!!