back again...

Hey Y'allllllls...

some street art

Im continuing to have a ball over here in sunny Oz. Sorry i havent been posting more, but its hard cos the internet can be abit funky and i am tres busy most of the time! Its funny - ive gone from living pretty much by myself (and not especially loving it) to where i am now, sharing with 4 other people and constantly have someone to chat to, or just sit & mooch with... its nice!! Plus very good for making me rest up, chill-out and eat big dinners!! Cos for some reason, since being out here i am WAY more aware of how skinny i am and ill be honest with you... i dont like it ONE BIT :(

baked chicken dinner!

I think maybe its because im around more people and am therefore comparing myself to them. I just FEEL tiny, and i know people think i LOOK tiny... i cant shy away from it and pretend its not real like i did back home in my safe little bubble... So operation EAT is still very much on! We have been out for vietnamese (fried calamari and lemon chicken were some memorable faves!) And ive tried Indian too... Yeah, its good. im experimenting more and trying stuff, cos why the hell not?! im in AUSTRALIA!!! But altho its fun to eat new things, actually eating ALOT and on a consistent basis is much harder than i thought! I do eat whenever im hungry now and sod whether its the right "time" or "place", i want to break that ED mentality that food needs to be perfect. Cos its just food, right?!

this says it all!!!

Anyways, i still find night-time is the easiest time to eat, so im chowing down on bedtime snacks, but i dunno... im kindof getting sick of them! its like i used to LOVE having a bedtime snack cos it was a rare time that i "allowed" myself something sweet... but now that im cramming in maybe two or three different cereal bars etc, im not really feeling them so much anymore! I guess i need to find ways of bigging up my main meals more. i still dont get hungry for lunch and it confuses me to know what to eat during the day... i can never figure out what i might want :s

Hopefully that will change soon tho, cos i went round today applying for jobs in cafes and GUESS who got a trial day tomo?! oh yeaaaaaah. ME!!! To be honest, i was surprised how quick it was, i went out - and BOOM. potential job, right there! So tomo i do a trial shift and then after dazzling them with my mad barista skills (ahem... no, i dont drink coffee. whats your point?!) i will FINGERS CROSSED, have a job :)

So thats a little update on things so far... theres been loads more going on but i cant really pin it all down in a post. I think my best bet is just sporadic posting with pics and bits of updates and that... cos otherwise ill start feeling bogged down and worrying about not posting enough or whatever. Im here to RELAX not to stress myself out!!!

an apt card, methinks!

So - until next time, folks... 

Take it easy breezy

 i know i will!!!

:)